If All Is Well, Why Am I Like This?
Genesis 25:20–26
Isaac was forty years old when he took Rebekah as wife,
the daughter of Bethuel the Syrian of Padan Aram, the sister of Laban the
Syrian.
Now Isaac pleaded with the LORD for his wife, because she
was barren; and the LORD granted his plea, and Rebekah his wife conceived.
But the children struggled together within her; and she
said, “If all is well, why am I like this?” So she went to inquire of the LORD.
And the LORD said to her: “Two nations are in your womb,
Two peoples shall be separated from your body; One people shall be stronger
than the other, And the older shall serve the younger.”
So when her days were fulfilled for her to give birth,
indeed there were twins in her womb. And the first came out red.
He was like a hairy garment all over; so they called his
name Esau.
Afterward his brother came out, and his hand took hold of
Esau’s heel; so his name was called Jacob. Isaac was sixty years old when she
bore them.
Twenty Years of Waiting
The first time this passage really stood out to me was when
I realized that Isaac was 40 years old when he took Rebekah as his wife, but by
the time they gave birth to Esau and Jacob, Isaac was already 60 years old.
There were 20 years between when they got married and when
they gave birth to the only children they had, Esau and Jacob.
Twenty years in between.
Twenty years of waiting before the children finally came.
I know that in those days, women married quite young. So
let’s say, maybe Rebekah was 16 years old. Let’s take 16 years old as the age
when the young ladies got married at that time.
That would mean that by the time she gave birth, she would
have been 36 years old - 20 years later.
And I can imagine what it must have felt like because, if
she had gotten married at 16, most of the other people who got married at 16 at
that time maybe got pregnant almost immediately, and then they had their kids.
By the time they were 20, maybe they would already have two
or three kids. I’m just using a quick example. I’m not saying this is exactly
how it happened.
They could have had the kids they wanted to have while
Rebekah couldn’t have any child until she turned 36.
Now, let’s imagine that someone got married at 16 and had a
child maybe at 17. That child, a daughter, then grows up, turns 16, gets
married, and gets pregnant. So that’s 17 plus 16, which would be about 33 or
34.
That means that by the time Rebekah was pregnant and about
to give birth at about 35 or 36, almost all of her age-mates who got married
around the ages of 15, 16, or 17 would not only have finished giving birth, but
their children could now be the ones who were pregnant and in the process of
giving birth.
While Rebekah was trying to give birth to her own child, her
age-mates could have been having their grandchildren.
And I can imagine what that must have felt like for her.
Maybe when she was feeling these children struggling in her
womb, she could have gone to meet people, and people could have told her that
all was well.
That it was okay.
That it was because she was having a child later in life.
That this was a geriatric pregnancy and she was having a
child at a time when her age-mates were having grandchildren.
They could have told her that she should expect that it
would not be the same for her as it had been for them.
Imagine people repeatedly telling her:
“It’s okay. It’s not a big deal. What you’re experiencing
is what you should be experiencing.”
Like I said, maybe she was 35, 36, 37, or approaching 40.
Even in this day and age, that is considered an older pregnancy. Giving birth
from the age of 35 or 36, even today, when maternal mortality has dropped
drastically, can be considered an older pregnancy.
I can’t imagine what it must have looked like at that time.
Everybody could have told her that every time she complained
that something wasn’t well or things didn’t feel right, it was simply a symptom
of having a geriatric pregnancy and that she should just accept it.
Even the people who helped women give birth - the midwives -
could have said:
“It’s okay. It’s expected. This is the way things are
supposed to be. You should expect that it will not be as easy or
straightforward as it would have been if you had given birth when you were
maybe 16 or 17.”
They could have told her that all the issues she was facing
were to be expected.
But she insisted and said:
If All Is Well, Why Am I Like This?
That question stayed with me:
“If all is well, why am I like this?”
If all is well, why am I like this?
The lesson that I learned from this is to be insistent even
when everybody tells you that it’s okay.
Imagine when your fire is dying out and everyone tells you
that it happens - that when you give your life to Christ, you’re on fire, but
eventually everybody loses that spark.
No.
All is not well.
Refuse to accept the status quo.
Insist and say:
“No, all is not well. I know that all is not well.”
You cannot tell me that it is expected that I’ll be on fire
today and then tomorrow I’ll not be on fire, or tell me that it wanes and ebbs
- that fire for God wanes and ebbs.
No.
My Lord’s Word told me that I would go from one degree of
glory to another degree of glory, that if we seek Him, He will show us great
and marvelous and mighty things that we have never known.
I should not use my own hand to peg myself and accept
circumstances and say:
“Oh, this is the way it’s supposed to be. This is the way it
has always been. This is the way it was for others; therefore, I must just sit
down and accept it.”
No.
All is not well.
If all does not feel well, take it to God.
Rebekah went to God with it, and God didn’t tell her:
“Oh, all is well.”
No.
God told her that there were two nations in her womb.
There was an explanation for it.
All was not the way it was supposed to be. There were two
nations in her womb, two peoples who would be separated from her body.
Because she went to God, she was able to receive a
revelation of the future of the children that she had.
Imagine if she had just accepted it and said:
“Oh, this is the way it’s supposed to be.”
She would not have been able to receive from God a
revelation of the future and destiny of her children.
She would not have been able to help Jacob come into the
destiny that God had already spoken about when He said that the older would
serve the younger.
But because she refused to simply accept that this was the
way it was supposed to be, she was able to get from God a glimpse into the
future of her children.
She was able to get from God a vision, a picture of the
future of her children, and she was able to use it to help ensure that her
children lived up to the destiny that God had planned for them.
So the thing I want to walk away from this with is:
Refuse to accept the status quo.
Refuse to let people convince you - or, for me, I refuse to
let people convince me - that if I feel like all is not well, I should just
accept that that’s the way it is.
No, no, no.
That’s not the way it’s supposed to be.
So, if all is well, why am I like this?
Go to God in prayer and insist:
“God, all doesn’t feel well. Why am I feeling like this?”
And I know that the Lord will give us an answer.
Sometimes things may not feel well because God is calling
us. But because we are used to the status quo, because we have let people
convince us to accept the status quo, we may miss God calling us to a higher
level of consecration, calling us to come and hear from Him.
I can imagine how hard it must have been for Rebekah because
everybody could have told her:
“This is a geriatric pregnancy. You shouldn’t expect it to
be smooth. You should expect to be in the midst of all of this suffering.”
But she said no.
She went to God, and she got an answer for her problems.
I pray that God will help us not to just accept what is, but
to push through and go into the more that God has planned for us and the more
that God is calling us to.
In the mighty name of Jesus, amen.








